Friday, December 25, 2009
m sick.. m tired..
of all this nonsense..
y cant ppl juz understand wat i m gg thru..
its easy for others to say..
bt in my position. there r tings tt i cant do or say..
nt tt i like to lie..
sometimes i juz feel like leaving on d spot..
perhaps u r right.. m ignorant..
rather i shld call myself stupid...
i juz wish all tis cld b over soon,.
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
Monday, December 21, 2009
everybody is telling me to let it go...
bt wld it b tt easy to let go??
i realli need to calm dwn n tink properly..
what i shld or shld nt do..
y a r/s must be so complicating...
y cant it juz b straightforward..
sometimes i pity myself..
always caught in between ppl...
i realli dunno wat to do..
wat must i do to release myself frm all these entanglement :(
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
Sunday, December 20, 2009
hm...
nt sure wat gg thru my mind rite nw..
all seems to blurr..
i suddenly forget hw to make the right decision..
ever since tt nite.. it reali affected me alot..
my mind n heart suffered..
all tis affected my daily work..
i realli cannot tink..
i juz wanna get my life back on track..
i suddenly feel tt everyting is wrong at tis pt of time..
it feels like as if even my job is not meant for me..
i realli dunno wat to do..
sobx sobx
wat bothers me d most..
is tt wen i asked u wat u treat me as..
ur ans was "someone special"..
i realli want to noe wat u meant by tt..
bt wen i reminded u of ur gf..
u juz shut up..
m i juz a "spare tyre" tt u kol each time u dun feel like being wif ur gf??
i realli dun wish to be tt...
had enuf of such treatments...
i wont force u to make a decision..
coz d last ting i want to happen is tt..
it will affect our 10 yrs frenship..
:(
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;