Friday, April 07, 2006
here i am..
posting in my blog again..
went for aninterview early in the morning..
bt again..
i dun tink i nailed it..
haiz...
is it tt hard to look 4 a job..
so much 4 ppl understanding tt i am bored staying at hm..
bt actual fact is.
I M STRESSED!!!
staying at hm make me think..
i do lotsa tinking..
shld i do tis??
shld i do tt??
was i right wen i did tt??
sense of regret starts to overcome me..
day by day..
even nw...
i am tinking..
did i do wat i suppose 2 do during the interview??
shld i regret apply 4 tt job??
wat shld i do?/
i need to stop tinking and move on..
its easier said than done..
wen i wanna go out.
i get controlled by my parents!!
wat the hell..
i am 20 for goodness sake..
i m no longer 10!!!
at times i juz wanna stay out late..
enjoy the company of my frenz..
even i reach hm b4 12..
they get angry..
y cant i reach hm late?
n y my sis can??
she can stay out till 7am nxt day..
n nobody care..
i dun wish to have such a freedom..
bt wat i wish is they cld let me go and have my fun...
i feel bad wen i had to leave my frenz halfway..
its so nt me...
i prefer to be wif them till the end..
to my frenz..
i m sorry if i always leave halfway..
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Life have been weird..
Scewed...
Messed up..
tt all i get??!!??
haiz...
since i practically gt nth 2 do..
i shall update my blog..
rejected and have been rejected..
tt wat i get when i apply 4 a job...
is it tt difficult 2 find a job??
all i need is a job..
to keep me bz...
occupied..
nearn money to further my studies..
what else cld i asked for..
my 20th bdae juz passed...
was glad to have my gd frenz 2 celebrate wif me...
thx guys..
have u ever experience where ur dream abt teh future came true???
well..
i have..
twice tt is..
each time i reach an important point in my life..
if it chose to be screwed up..
the signs are always given to me in my dreams...
kinda suxed..
knowing what is going to happen..
nonetheless..
i have prepared myself for the worse..
hope life will take a better turn in the nxt few wks...
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;