Friday, March 13, 2009
what is the meaning of "understand"
i realli dun get it till date..
u mentioned tt i dun understand ur work
as nw i m no longer working..
first u said i keep sms or call u too often wen work..
fine..
nw i seldom do tt..
lest u get unhappy again..
den nw u say tt i dun understand how u feel after u work..
coz i keep calling u to ask u to eat or even watch a show...
on top of tt u mentioned tt i nw dun realli msg u..
n u say tt u understand tt i might b slping or tired..
bt have u ever tot how bored i m..
i try nt to disturb u during working hrs..
i noe wat type of job u do..
bt at the end of the day
have u asked urself if u understand me..
if i didnt understand u
i wldnt even bother to try to chg
d amt of times i msg u during working hrs..
this is nt the first time..
each time u go back hometown
u get back n find fault with me
n d words tt u always say is "u dun understand me"
u nvr tell me wat happens wen u go back
all u tell me is
"i will tell u once i get back"
bt have tt ever happened??
lately it juz gt worse
i have a feeling tt u r pressured by ur family
i understand
bt i wun say aniting
each time i decide to go our separate ways..
as u say i m nt understanding enuf n i can find a better guy
u always choose not to..
nw u d one hu decides to go separately..
n yet again u decided nt to..
can i noe wat u trying to do..
i feel tt u r acting weird these days...
i juz casually mentioned to u abt a guy asking me out on a date.
u said
"y nt juz go witf him n try.. mayb he is d one"
u repeated say tis to me
this gave me a hunch tt something bad have happen
i rather we end this nw den to drag on
at least nw i can still bear to let go of everting
i m juz afraid in d future
it gets even more painful
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
have u ever have this feeling tt a person close to you is hiding something frm u..
bt u dunno how to ask..
wat do u do..
wat if the person ever said tt he will PROMISE tt he will tell u
d whole truth once he gt d time..
bt nvr did..
i m confused..
i m oreadi stresing over d fact tt i cant find a job..
on top of tt such tings is happening.
i can always act like as if nth ever did happen..
i can lie to others..
bt i cant lie to myself..
i m feeling very vexed..
i duno wat to do..
sometimes
i juz wished tt ans will fall frm d sky.
lately been feeling useless..
for once i m happy tt i completed my degree.
bt at d end of the day..
my results sux..
i cant even get wat i aimed for..
its very upsetting.
bt i tell others tt i m happy tt i passed.
dun care abt the results.
bt hu m i kidding..
i definitely mind d results..
if i had thw $$ i wld retake d relevant papers..
bt nw i dont..
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
