Thursday, June 30, 2005
sumtimes wen i hear my blog song..
i realli wonder sumting..
what are friends for??
how do i noe who r my frenz n hu r nt??
d sentence:
"That's what friends are for"
what are they for??
are they there 2 hurt u even more??
or are they there 2 comfort u wen u r dwn??
so wat r friends realli for??
i have no idea myself..
sumtimes i wonder..
r they my real friends?
or r they not??
hu r my real friends??
d question is still ringing in my head till 2dae.
i admit tt i might hurt some ppl..
i realised it..
i tried 2 chg..
nw i m nt even myself animore...
while i chg myself..
others start hurting me..
wen will this ever end??
m i happy with my chged life??
i dun tink i m..
sumtimes i even asked myself..
"is wat i m doing rite..
by doing tis did i hurt anione in d process..."
i nvr noe..
now i even wished tt none of tis had happened..
i wished tings were back 2 normal...
bt i guess it can nvr happen..
all i can do is to look into the future..
Like wat i said in one of my previous entry..
"y m i deceiving myself?"
i guess life is full of deceivings...
PS: i m nt trying 2 say abt ani of u out there..
tis is my inner thoughts....
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
heez..
nw i m particularly bored..
ahaha..
niwae..
where is d info i asked for??
how d hell m i suppose 2 continue doing the report w/o it?/
*shit*
i noe u r out to get me..
bt pls..
tis is project..
argh..
nvm..
niwae..
i shall patiently wait 4 it...
niwae..
i m so stucked at hm..
haiz..
no class...
n watsoever..
haiz...
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
haiz..
was out with my nyp npcc friends n my bf..
of course..
bt on my way to meet them..
my mom gave me a bad news..
shall nt mention it..
bt i was totally affected by it..
called rais 2 talk..
even though we will be meeting soon..
was kinda sad..
had a gd talk with him..
though with my frenz ard..
i try nt to show tt i m upset.
i was talking non-stop..
which my bf noe i was trying 2 hide my sadness..
till tis one time..
wen mervin juz hit my ears..
i was so dumb founded..
which seems to be angry with him..
bt nt..
i juz woke up frm my madness..
i didnt noe hw 2 react 2 it.
juz kept quiet.
though i tried 2 b normal...
bt i cant..
i tink it juz struck me tt i need 2 face reality no matter wat..
i can never run away from it..
bt d truth is..
i dun wanna face it..
y m i deceiving myself??
is there a way tt i can face it without showing my sadness??
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;