Saturday, May 12, 2007
What is happening to my life??
Why I cant make the decisions that I wish to make??
Why must I let my heart rule my head??
I long ago noe tt is the worst ting to do…
N yet I m doing it??
When I pity others…. Do others pity me??
I only gt myself to blame…
Making the decisions are easy…
To execute it is another ting…
I can nvr have the heart to break somebody else’s heart…
Bt if I dun I am suffering myself…
Suffering 2 yrs is enuf..
I do not need to suffer even more…
All I do is to avoid him…
Is tis an answer to my agony??
Or should I juz face the music..
Its nt tt I m in luv in sumone else..
No doubt I am getting to know this guy very well…
Bt I myself noe that I m nt going to jump in another relationship very soon…
2 yrs is very long..
I need my turn to rest….
I have no ans to my questions…
And wen will I have it…
Hearing his voice being very pitiful made me reconsider my decision..
Y m I so indecisive….
Is that the reason y I m still wif him??
I guess so..
I cant bear to break his small heart…
Do I really love him or m I juz sympathizing him??
I used to tell ppl wat to do..
Bt amazingly I have no answer for myself.
I changed all my passwords to protect myself…
Y m I doing all this??
Wat m I afraid of??
Ppl break my heart every now and then..
I noe the agony of having a broken heart..
I dun wish him to go thru tt..
Bt wat m I to do with myself??
SUFFER!!
Is tt a choice that I have??
I dun tink so..
Bt wat m I to do…
I M CONFUSED!!!!!
CONFUSED is all I do now…
ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;