Tuesday, May 15, 2007
hm...
today kinda tell him a few tings..
n i believe he will read tis entry...
niwae..
wat i wanna say is..
may i noe wat m i doing to my life??
m i being fair to him?
m i being fair to myself??
shld i let past experiences hold me back...
or..
shld i take it as a lesson n learn from it?
hmm..
bt is the lessons enuff for me to learn??
m i prepared to bring him into my life??
PONDER!!!
i dun wanna tink abt it..
bt it juz keep ringing in my mind..
wen i m wif him i m juz happy..
NO STRESS!! comfortable...
i can be more of myself (which he kinda dun like it.. bt wth)
argh..
cont PONDER!!
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
Monday, May 14, 2007
let me c..
after so long u realised how much u hurt me..
n nw u wanna make up for it..
dun u tink its kinda too late??
if u were to do it earlier..
we may not be in tis predicament..
yeah its my fault tt i didnt tell u my feelings..
bt cant u tell by my actions??
aint tt gd enuff to tell?
do u realli need me to spell everything out??
WTH..
u noe me..
i wont spoon feed u..
its alwayz figure it out urself...
do u tink i will let myself go back to such life??
i dun tink so..
as much as i cherish our relationship..
i have to put it to an end..
i tink its like no point going on...
all i get is hurt at the end of the day..
to guys out there...
ty nt to hurt ur loved ones..
u will alwayz end up losing them..
which i dun tink u wanna...
niwae..
nw i m very happy with my life..
i do not need such diturbance....
like wat i like to say
"live life to the fullest.. more exciting tings is coming up"
ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE!!
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
Sunday, May 13, 2007
life have been good..
bt now i wonder if i m wat i m..
m i really rough..
or m i juz protecting myself...
y cant i juz be wat i wanna be..
i wanna be close to him...
bt i juz wldnt dare..
y??
m i being fair to him??
PONDER!!!!
wat i m doing??
y cant i let him into my life..
wat m i scared of??
y dun i try one last time??
i may noe him for years nw...
like 8yrs...
bt y m i hesitating??
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
time have past by...
i guess i have grown fonder of him...
i do miss him now and then..
bt wat m i to do..
i dun wanna be in any relationship...
it kinda is upsetting when u r hurt for 2yrs plus..
i wanted to give him a chance...
bt..
i presume for now its best we are like who we are now
i dun wanna another commitment
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
I am happy with my life now..
No worries or whatsoever…
Moreover I have someone beside me…
I kinda like this feeling
But…
How long will last??
Tt what I am afraid of…
I tried to show no feelings for him..
Bt today I show it..
I let him touch my hand and all…
Some one pls tell me what to do??
I am lost..
I dun wanna be in another relationship..
Bt again I dun wanna lose him….
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
Life is so much different now
I feel so much more relaxed than normal
I presume my life is back where I wanted to be
Bt y is there still an emptiness in me??
I am taking a long break b4 I start going back to reality
I guess now is the best time I start looking at what I wanna go
And where I wanna be
I have lotsa guys in my life rite now
Be it my age or older
They all care for me
Bt y dun I feel a ting for them
This is a question that have been ringing in my head..
What is happening to me
I guess now tt I gt wat I wanted
I dunno where to start
I presume all I can do now is to sit back and relax
Tink abt work and school..
Tt all..
Niwae
I shall go do what I have been wanting to do
TO HAVE LOTSA FUN
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
How can u do this to me..
U claim tt u love me..
If u love tt sumbody u shld let them be happy…
Even if u need to let it go…
At times anger is hard to appease..
U may say u r angry wif me 2…
Bt have u ever felt how is it to be hurt over and over again..
I cry in my slp at times…
Wat m I to do…
After so long, even if I wanna cry,
There are no tears…
It hurts frm inside…
In the eyes of others,
I may seemed fine..
Bt deep done I m hurt and angry…
Angry with myself for not letting it go..
Angry with myself as I trusted u too much
Angry with myself for giving u the chance to hurt me…
Angry with myself for having it kept so long
Angry with myself tt I nvr wanna trust wat others have to say
Angry with myself for letting you in my life..
Nw I am full of regrets…
Wat d point..
What is done cannot be undone…
Shld I start trusting again??
I dunno..
I cant make up my mind..
All I need a day of holiday or rest..
Away from everything…
Family…
Friends..
Work…
Life..
A time for me to reflect on what have happen…
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
I mean like wat the FUCK!!!
How can u say tt it is hard to meet me nowadays…
I gave u chances to meet me…
Bt u nvr cherish it…
So it is my fault??
If u r upset with me…
Den fine be it!!
I guess this is where it ends…
I always let u have ur ways.
Bt I tink tis is too much!!
I have endured enuf..
All I can do is cry frm inside..
Certain things that I wanna do u wldnt let me do
Bt u want me 2 do wat u wanna do..
Wat d hell…I have my own life u noe…
It is pain to cry without tears…
I really wanna cry rite now…
Bt where are my tears??
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
