Thursday, May 31, 2007
i tink as of today..
i have made up my mind../
bt wat i hope is tt i didnt make the wrong choice..
i have decided not to be single anymore...
i guess i shld give him a chance to prove himself..
DUN LET ME DOWN!!!
argh..
if nt i will totally lost my faith in guys..
ahaha..
niwae...
happy...
i juz wanna say sumting..
i have managed to put u on the right track for 2 1/2 yrs..
bt y now u go back to square one..
where is the person i used to noe..
d person hu is always interested to find out more abt the religion?
y u go back to ur old ways??
drinking??getting drunk??
wat all tt...
u promised me long ago u wont touch it animore...
wat happened to tt guy tt i noe..
juz bcoz i left u n b with some other guys,.
u shldnt have done it..
cherish wat u haf..
u really disappoint me..
i have nth 2 say...
i was angry n upset wen u told me u were drunk..
as a fren..
i dun get it..
doesnt mean watever i say above means i have feelings for him or watever..
i always cared abt all my frens..
even though they bastard me or i dump them..
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
Monday, May 28, 2007
i feel like i do not noe the direction i m going..
lotsa tings have been happening..
wat m i 2 do.
i cant seem to concentrate on wat i m doing at hm..
if at work..
i feel tired n stressed..
how??
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
Sunday, May 27, 2007
all tis while i tot i didnt wanna b in a relationship..
bt i tink i juz put myself into one.
indirectly..
i feel happy n all..
bt..
i duno..
i m confused..
argh.
shld i accept him??
or WAT!!!
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
as d days goes by..
i find myself attracted to him..
bt y cant i juz make myself accept him?
is there anything tt i m looking out for??
is he d guy for me??
or is he juz any other guys who walked in into my life??
in d past..
wen i was with my x...
in the bus there was a bunch of drunkies..
tot he wld protect me..
bt as such..
he almost find fault with them...
lucky with me he cldnt do much..
all i did was to pretend tt they didnt exiswt and carry on the bus ride..
all he cld tink of is..
"if they come near us, they will get it frm me"
afterall..
at tt pt of time..
i felt i was d one who had to protect him and stop him
frm getting into trouble...
2day..
d same ting happen...
on the SAME bus no..
taking the SAME route...
bt at tt pt..
no matter how scared m i..
i felt tt he is there to protect me..
and not vice versa..
all i cld do is hold on tight to him..
y..
y is this happening to me??
wat must i do to myself tt i will take him in..
shld i give GUYS another chance??
or shld i juz let them slip thru my fingers..
wat m i to do...
CONFUSED!!!
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
