Tuesday, June 28, 2005
haiz..
was out with my nyp npcc friends n my bf..
of course..
bt on my way to meet them..
my mom gave me a bad news..
shall nt mention it..
bt i was totally affected by it..
called rais 2 talk..
even though we will be meeting soon..
was kinda sad..
had a gd talk with him..
though with my frenz ard..
i try nt to show tt i m upset.
i was talking non-stop..
which my bf noe i was trying 2 hide my sadness..
till tis one time..
wen mervin juz hit my ears..
i was so dumb founded..
which seems to be angry with him..
bt nt..
i juz woke up frm my madness..
i didnt noe hw 2 react 2 it.
juz kept quiet.
though i tried 2 b normal...
bt i cant..
i tink it juz struck me tt i need 2 face reality no matter wat..
i can never run away from it..
bt d truth is..
i dun wanna face it..
y m i deceiving myself??
is there a way tt i can face it without showing my sadness??
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;